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WELCOME .......... here will reside : my personal stuff, my art, and stuff about my universe and characters. maybe if i move the contents of my universe carrd onto a cool new page i will gain motivation to write and expand.... i'd love to have pages for individual characters with music and links to other characters and mini-stories of various forms... ive been thinking a lot about making a rpg game maker-style thingy with visual novel elements for part of ezekiels story.. but that can just be here on neocities instead, in a form inspired by metafurquest. not enough people know about metafurquest, which is a shame.. i find it to be really interesting, story, character and visual wise. it was my first interaction with this sort of thing, and it hasnt left my mind since. i love gatto dyboski's art so much.. i will not apologize for talking about whatever since this was the point - to write as much as possible here so i will ahve something here tahts longer than usual and isnt just lorem ipsum

★ CHANGELOG DIARY ★

15.03.2022 - creation date ^_^ it was an evening/night so i had little time to do stuff. i made the background gift though! [i watched my gf put together the bionicles she bought.it was a good day]
16.03.2022 - created the log in my notepad. i am writing this right now this evening ! right now it is 22:09 ! wow! its 52 minutes later than that now. discovering how to do things here is so fun. its like a logic game, trying over and over to achieve the goal. i yoinked a template off here and messing with it on tryit editor from w3schools has helped me learn how to do some things :) i also took several gifs yesterday and today, and will continue to do so because i am a public menace (they are from gifcities, i love that site). [i woke up crying because i was crying in a dream. the dream wasnt tragic though, and this experience was a first for me i think. strange! today was ok. i am a bit tired. maybe i should do recaps the day after, but right now i am full of memories of today that will be gone tomorrow. but because of that ive made a huge block of text now.. wahhh]
17.03.2022 - tested opacity, added a guestbook and my dragon cave leetle tree in a space that will one time have stamps or other small stuff, added a favicon. its nice to repurpose some of the art i did, as seen in the favicon, marceli who you click on to get here, and the guy at the top of this page, who is called Sid, short for Obsidian.. can you see who these pages take their aestethetic from now? i feel like he is 'the sorrowgrove guy', a mascot of sorts... more to be added? the day isnt over. maybe i will add/edit things tomorrow. [after the second alarm, i scrambled to get on teams for my french lesson. i wasnt that late, i didnt feel terrible, and geography was cancelled for today, so i was free. some time later, i got a headache. too much screentime?]
18.03.2022 - messed with a page, and made 2 new ones. they're kind of a secret at this moment (a-la komaedalovemail i suppose?), one is a character page.. you could putting some things/names before .html in the url is all im saying LOL [wrote this later the next day, so i forgot some things.. i guess the personal insight section will be short here]
19.03.2022 - as of the time of writting this... nothing other than making this and the previous days entry [im really worried about someone..]
09.04.2022 - no actual changes other than these words,, i havent abandoned this,i am thinking about this little site a lot. thinking about what i could do.. without doing them, just like i do with art. wish i wasnt like this but well i cant delete the code that makes me do this from myself now can i. [i felt really well rested yesterday which is incredibly rare for me. felt like something was missing too (my usual tiredness and lack of energy). do people usually feel like this? like they have the energy to do things?? i ran around my room and jumped on my bed,even. the power..ouuughhh!!!]
01.09.2022 - yet again, no changes but this log. bad internet today so i cant do anything despite wanting to :/ [the school year started today. the first one i wont be attending, as im done with school. feels like 2019 the way i was on holiday vacations and schools starting and theres no quarantine. except its 3 years later and im not 16-but-soon-to-be-17 but 19-to-be-20 and the years between then and now were wasted away thanks to the pandemic and im only free from school now while i couldve been done earlier if the pandemic didnt start and since nobody knew how to make online lessons and was confused and i didnt do any homework and thus failed the year and had to repeat it.]

i go by MARCELI and ALEX. i use alex mostly online in english spaces, and marceli in polish ones. 19 years have gone by so fast. i am JUST A GUY. i go by he/him. here is a picture i drew of TRANS ANGELS.

the one on the LEFT is representing TRANSMASCS, and the one on the RIGHT is a representative of TRANSFEMS. the transmasc one was the first to be transported to digital space from my sketchbook, which is why the transfem is looking a bit less messy. there are many trans angels of many shapes and sizes. i chose to depict them as somewhat fat, as i am too, and find these types of shapes beautiful. trans people are beautiful, and i am trans too. i wish i was a transmasc angel as in posessing that kind of form. however i do not have many eyes and big claws and points and a back-halo and more. so i am just a human trans angel, as every human trans person is. bodies are very beautiful. a few days ago i looked in the mirror at myself and felt so happy and good about myself and my body. there are things i'd like to get rid of such as breasts and other things that i'd like to change, of course, but despite that.. i am very beautiful and handsome, even. i hope everyone will feel good about themselves while looking at the mirror. i can't wait until the day i will feel even better after ive achieved the changes i want. hope i can get T started sometime this year !

why do i write and speak so strangely ..